Saturday, 15 October 2016



understanding zen is like looking at writing in a mirror and realising everything is backwards

understanding life is like looking at writing in a mirror and realising everything is backwards

Saturday, 12 March 2016



joshu bends a monk



in the course of editing this, i felt it was good but didn't understand why . .

then when listening to it for maybe the tenth time it suddenly hit me as to what it was a b o u t . .

that is, the irretrievable loss of a day ..

: o (

Thursday, 3 March 2016



jerk and non jerk reviews

i think at this stage we are going onto "no comments" and i can claw back some time in my day ! : o)

Wednesday, 2 March 2016

burnt



i really am feeling burnt by researching sepehr's suggestion of the book "the hospice" by robert aickman, its entertainment and wrong minded, this sort of swill is endless and it actually hurts to go into it . .

so what do i do ?

do i need a public message board at all, the reality is i don't, i am available by email or reddit nick, when i deal with people individually its easier. .

the basic problem with the public board has always been because of the way i feel the need to deconstruct the erroneous viewpoints, so there's just this ongoing burden that i am now finding too damaging, people following their interests which are peripheral to mine, zakaj is an easy example because he is so clearly in the gabriel pradīpaka camp, totally bizarre but i am not in the business of remedying his mistake, this is it, people really have their own views and the energy required for deconstruction to keep this public message board sane is just too much for me !

so i am suspending the comments section in two or three days, after that i will permit comments as i feel suitable which at this point will only be people asking for contact information or having an important announcement !

so in effect this blog ceases to be a public discussion board . .

one of the factors in this decision has been observing blogs or facebook pages of people who give retreats and that sort of thing, they also have this issue of the discussion running away in directions that are negative for their reputation and quite involving if they care to step into the fray . .

so its just like a general issue and i'm not into fixing the world at all if it were even possible ! :o)

Sunday, 7 February 2016



this almost failed reconciliation of an ‘ unseen ’ motive force behind reality

Tuesday, 26 January 2016

Monday, 4 January 2016

comments section permanently closing soon



the comments section of this board will be put permanently on moderation and no post will be passed !

the section below titled "arseholes" is an effective exposition/discussion of why !

might give it a day or two before enforcing !

Friday, 1 January 2016

arseholes



zakaj not posting and sepehr hardly posting, what more can you ask, an abatement of the freeloaders ! :o)

you both have the same problem that jason and jonathon don't have so much because they deal with their own lives

because you two don't deal with your own lives but in "fawlty towers" abstract structures you fall into the trap of believing these rickety and wrong minded constructs

the flaw is in your cognitive styles whereby you don't work out the abstractions and structures in anything like enough detail, teasing out the right and wrong and building something with a firm foundation and upwards development . .

when i read your stuff, its full of errors which i could correct but i just ignore because obviously i am having to carry you too much and you can't be bothered to do the work yourself but just suck my time and energy

so really you are both arseholes though you don't see it that way . .

just want to be carried by me for your entertainment . .